….how
in the world is 4 months over….wasnt it just the other day I was saying goodbye
to my boyfriend and friends in Boise to go home for Christmas….wasnt it last
week that mom was telling me what I needed to pack to go to Italy and I sat
back thinking there was no way I was only taking two shirts….wasnt it the other
day that I was literally shaking and bawling my eyes out in Spokane Airport
afraid of every experience that was a head…wasn’t it yesterday I was meeting
Ely for the first time, neither of us speaking much of the other’s language and
she was taking me to go pick up Giacomo from school….
…how
is it even kind of possible that it is time to go home? When I look back at all
that I have done, seen, and learned….it makes sense….4 new countries 23 towns
and cities and literally 1000s of pictures….this has absolutely been the best
adventure of my life, but it just doesn’t seem like it is time for it to be
over…..i know that it just means that something more is coming…that its time
for the next adventure to start…..but it just is so surreal…
….today
I packed up my room….all the pictures, gifts, clothes and other things that I
had bought along the way….i cleaned….and then went over to say goodbye to my
friends….it just didn’t seem real at all…..like im not going to wake up
tomorrow morning and see them when we go to school together….i did however make
it through the goodbyes with my friends without crying so I counted that as a
little vicotyr…
…this
morning I went to Eataly and to the panino shop for lunch….literally started
crying on my walk to Eataly just because I was thinking about how much im going
to miss this place and this life….and then when I went to the panini shop and
told them I was leaving, the panini lady started getting teary saying goodbye….then
I had to come home and say goodbye my nonnas Louisa and Paula….and well the
flood gates opened…
….if
you had told me when I graduated high school that I would have been studying
abroad in Torino Italy and have this amazing family, and life that I adore….I
would have called you crazy and wishful….but its truly I actually have it here…saying
goodbye to those two amazing women was so terribly hard…..Louisa gave me a
sweater that she literally knit for me…its so wonderful and so loving of her J….I
said goodbye and completely lost it….today has been quite the day of tears…and I
can only imagine what tomorrow is going to be…..
…I
really really really do not want to say goodbye to my mom tomorrow…this is
going to be so incredibly hard….one of my friends today posted a picture of
their dinner tonight with the caption “youre gonna miss this, youre gonna want
this back, youre gonna wish these days hadn’t gone by so fast…” and I started
listening to that song….and holy cow its so true….i don’t understand how my
time here just flew by so fast…and I will miss all of this, all of the routine
that I have gotten into, all of the ins and outs of the Italian life….im really
truly excited to go home tomorrow and see my parents and all but i just don’t understand
how this can be over…..
….tomorrow
morning, Ely will take me to the airport for me and I will fly to Munich, then
Chicago for the night, then Salt Lake and home…..40 hours of traveling….a full
adventure just to get home…so many emotions im feeling right now….this has
truly been an amazing adventure and I wouldn’t trade a second of it for
anything….this is one of the best decisions ive ever made…..i have learned so
much in these past four months…ive seen amazing things….i have fallen even more
in love with traveling, Europe and Torino….i will definently return to Torino
as much as I can in my life, and I will have to come back to see my family….I don’t
understand how it can be over, but there is one thing I do understand…studying
abroad has been an amazing blessing that has truly changed me for good….
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